Old Notes

AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Hahahahaha!!!!!
DATE: 09/16/2006 12:23:55
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Niente sta andando il senso che dovrebbe.�
Sottometto frettolosamente queste mie sensibilità impazienti.�
Tutti questi ansia e nervosismo sta trasmettendo il mio cuore in disordine…�
Appena un ragazzo che abbraccia le sue ginocchia in mezzo a esso tutto.

Rabbrividendo ed in rotture, reprimo tutto il mio rammarico.�
Ho gridato tutta la notte, ma ora sembra che l'alba sta rompendosi…

Così, siete indubbiamente di destra.
Anche se ora posso provare a girare indietro e mantengo su essere testardo a questo proposito, benchè sappia è monotono.�
Cominci camminare ancora, questo volta ancora più lontano e non darò in su.

Se potessi ottenere appena un nuovo chance…���

Lo manterrò interamente bloccato via nel mio cuore fino a che i miei sogni non vengano allineare…

Mi sono ceduto a somethinf misero e vuoto nel più critico dei periodi.�
Non importa come ho provato duro, non potrei abbastanza raggiungere, mirando al puntello.�
Ho dovuto nuotare per la mia vita.

Sostenendo la corrente, non posso neppure alzare la mia voce.�
Potrebbe essere la destra di conclusione là, ma…

Non penso che l'amore possa conservare tutto, ma ci è qualcosa circa il vostro sorriso che ha guarito in qualche modo il mio cuore ed in vostri labbri ho trovato la resistenza per levarmi in piedi ancora in su.

Se soltanto potessi ottenere appena un nuovo chance…

Il flusso del fiume è persino oggi intenso.�
Ma non lascerò per andare della vostra mano.�
Crederò nell'amore che è per sempre nel mio cuore fino a che i miei sogni non vengano allineare…

Non penso che l'amore possa conservare tutto, ma ci è qualcosa circa il vostro sorriso che ha guarito in qualche modo il mio cuore ed in vostri labbri ho trovato la resistenza per levarmi in piedi ancora in su.

Così, siete indubbiamente di destra.�
Anche se ora posso provare a girare indietro e mantengo su essere testardo a questo proposito, benchè sappia è monotono, io cominci camminare ancora, questo volta ancora più lontano e questo volta che non darò in su.

Se soltanto potessi ottenere appena un nuovo chance…

Il flusso del fiume è persino oggi intenso.� Ma non lascerò per andare della vostra mano.� Crederò nell'amore che è per sempre nel mio cuore fino a che i miei sogni non vengano allineare…

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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: The iPOD SUCKS!!!!
DATE: 04/05/2006 05:04:37
STATUS: publish
BODY:
taken from http://blog.wired.com/cultofmac/



This is very true. The iPOD is a nice piece of work. It looks cool and it's got a lot of space. But for functionality, oh, well, duh. With all the restriction to music and it's filing system. It really just leaves you with a bigger headache when you spend your 20k (I know I did!) on it. What a disaster! I miss my old 20Gb I-river. It was big. It was bulky, but it didn't act like crap. The damn iPOD is really just an aesthetic tool which you can hang on your neck or show in front of your ass with a sign that says, "Steal Me. And you're gonna have a bigger headache!" Heh. Junk. Junk. Junk. I'll just sell mine and get a PS2. Hehe.



Read this article



Tuesday, 4 April 2006

Newsflash: Whiny Guy Feels Trapped By iTunes!

Topic: iPod

Sigh.



You know, the increasing restrictions on the usage of songs and videos bought off of iTunes is beginning to wear on me. Apple needs to take a closer look at the original terms they offered, specifically the number of burned CDs allowed per setlist.



On the other hand, there are few things that make me roll my eyes further back into my head than when someone writes an ill-formed rant complaining that purchasing an iPod locks the user into buying music off of iTunes. Oh, Barry Gerber of Mobility Guru and your commentary "Who Designed This Crap? The Great Ipod (sic) Scam." This is simply untrue. Take any CD in your collection. Stick it into the drive on your computer. Click import in iTunes...VOILA! DRM-free music in either AAC or MP3 format that will play on your iPod, unlimited numbers of computers and get burned onto blank CD-R after blank CD-R, as many as you want until bed-time.



That's too many handcuffs for me. Gone are pre-Itunes (sic) rights to store songs on as many computers as you want and to burn as many copies of a commercial CD as your little heart desires. And, here's the real nasty thing about Itunes (sic) DRM. If music vendors or Apple decide to put further restrictions on your use of the songs you've already downloaded, such as by allowing no copies to CD, there's nothing legal you can do about it.







Um, what? My old MP3s don't work anymore? That's news to me. Other than ripping from CDs, the only ways to possess unrestricted music files way back when were through complimentary downloads through artist Web sites and unauthorized file-sharing. Which, last I checked, also still exist. BitTorrent and SoulSeek. Give 'em the old Google.



After trashing the Ipod (sic) I went back to using the Creative Labs 512 MB Muvo TX FM MP3 player I bought earlier in 2005. It does everything the Nano does without all its limitations and I'll never have to mess with Ipods (sic) or Itunes (sic) again. Yea, it can't legally play the Itunes (sic) files I paid for and downloaded, but who cares, I'm no longer a prisoner of Apple's icky "I" world.







To argue in favor of using a Creative or iRiver product over an iPod because the former products are free of digital rights management is like advising the purchase of a Ford over a Chevy, because you won't need to use a seatbelt on the Ford. Purchasing downloads with DRM is a choice. If you don't like it, you have two options: Buy music on non-copy-protected CDs, or circumvent DRM through file-sharing downloads or software that strips it out. Anything else is obfuscation. You want hideous terms of service? Check out Sony's original music download site.



The argument being made is not actually an iPod vs. everyone else thing. It's an uninformed commentator vs. reality thing. The author does manage to figure out that iPods don't have FM tuners, which is a missing feature, but he seems to believe the ability to connect his awkwardly named Creative player as a thumb drive is a novel feature. The iPod Shuffle. Been there, done that.



We're praying for you. Seriously.

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Citi Analyst Believes French DRM Law Good For Market

Topic: iTunes

The Media Stock Blog has republished a statement from Citigroup Analyst Mark Mahaney:



Today iTunes and iPod work in a closed loop environment using Apple's proprietary DRM. Government intervention would create precedence for opening up this loop by mandating interoperability between the fragmented set of DRM solutions. We would note that this has historically been a major milestone for achieving ubiquity in other industries (such as when debit card networks struck reciprocal agreements that allowed consumers to use their debit cards a vast number of geographic locations).







It's an interesting piece, though some of the comparisons made have nothing to do with governmental regulation but rather with members of the same industry standardizing so they all grow. It also seems a bit optimistic to pretend people are going to flock to alternate MP3 players once Fairplay is opened up. The iPod is an icon; iTunes is just an interface. The hardware is revered for its ease of use, storage capacity and design. These things don't disappear over night.

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Tradework for Rumored iWork Spreadsheet Might Expire

Macsimum News dug up a December notice from the U.S. Patent and Trademark Office to Apple warning that its trademark for "Numbers," rumored to be a spreadsheet program for iWork, would expire within six months if the mark was not put into use.



Ever since Microsoft announced it would support and update Office for Mac OS X for an additional five years at January's Macworld, the conspiratorially minded have debated whether Apple killed a product that would have put its own productivity suite into more direct competition with Microsoft.



While a spreadsheet would make up for most of the present deficiencies in iWork, I would be surprised if Apple ever had anything up its sleeve in this regard. There's certainly strong precedent for the company floating information about apparently fictitious products in order to confuse rumor-mongers, as the court case moving ahead Thursday has proven.



At least we get to find out whether this is happening any time soon by June 28. Maybe to accompany the much-anticipated iBook replacement?

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Apple Expands Music Offerings To Include Tickets

Apple announced this morning that they are teaming with the Red Hot Chili Peppers and Ticketmaster to offer a one-of-a-kind pre-order deal for the band's new album, "Stadium Arcadium." (iTunes URL).



Fans that pre-order the double album will receive a download of the new single, "Dani California"; immediately at the time of the pre-order. On May 9, fans participating in the pre-order will also receive additional iTunes bonus content, including an exclusive audio interview with the band, a video chronicling the making of “Dani California” and a full color digital booklet.







Fans will also get to hop into line for a pre-sale for tickets on their upcoming tour. Any efforts to tie the deal into a rebate on the purchase of a new car and 10 percent off on socks were apparently unsuccessful.



Apple also secured the rights to the complete Dave Matthews Band catalog, though, oddly enough, not the music of the Beatles. Who knows what that's about.

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Monday, 3 April 2006

Poll: Vista Delay May Help Apple

Topic: Apple





A BusinessWeek poll about the Microsoft Vista delay yielded an interesting result.



BusinessWeek asked: "Will Microsoft's decision to delay the next version of the Windows operating system change your PC purchase plans?"



The biggest response by a huge margin -- more than 65 perccent -- said, "I do intend to buy a new computer -- an Apple."



The results aren't at all scientific, but it is interesting. Polls always skew toward the negative, but the Apple shift is huge. I'm guessing the poll must have been noted on a pro-Apple site somewhere and Apple fans responded en masse.



(Thanks Robin!)

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Microsoft Buying Apple? Still As Crazy As It Sounds

Topic: Apple

Noted lone analyst in the wilderness Rob Enderle thinks through the possibilities of Microsoft purchasing Apple, in order to solve problems both companies are facing.



Imagine what would result if a new Apple OS was based on the new Windows kernel rather than on Unix. It would be much more acceptable to a broad cross section of companies that wouldn't touch it with a ten foot pole today.







I think Enderle misunderstands the actual reason Microsoft is so firmly entrenched in big business -- it's not that their tech guys are comfortable poking around in the Windows kernel, it's that they've used Microsoft products forever and want to feel safe in its support system. If Microsoft were ever to make Mac OS X its primary operating system (perhaps under an appealing name like Windows Xista Professional Home Media Central Edition For Workgroups), it would be accepted by business, simply because it is a Microsoft OS.



Lots of shops are still running Windows 98, of course, but the majority of businesses running Windows will continue to run Windows, whatever's underneath the hood.



While Vista is turning into the Copland of Redmond, Washington, I think the biggest factor in determining whether Apple could ever play NeXT to Microsoft's Apple is ego. And Bill Gates would never humble himself enough to have Steve Jobs save his company.



(Image courtesy OnMac)

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MovieLink, CinemaNow Beat Apple in Movie Download Race

According to Engadget, seven major film studios, including all the heavy hitters, have decided to sell movies for download through Movielink and CinemaNow a pair of Web sites that don't support Macs, all the more reason for Apple to get busy launching movie sales through iTunes.



For all those who had been complaining about the high cost of Apple's sole "movie" download, the made-for-Disney Channel original "High School Musical," that $9.99 looks pretty good compared to some of what the other sites are offering. Movielink prices start at $8.99 but range up toward $30, which is outrageous for a video file that doesn't have any of the extras found on a DVD.



If these are the price points the movie studios are trying to back Apple toward, it's no wonder there hasn't been an announced deal yet. As the iTunes Music Store showed, the competition for retail downloads is not from brick-and-mortar stores, where people who want extras and packaging go, but with illegal downloading. When all you're paying for is legitimacy, it had better be competitive and portable.



These models aren't.

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Sunday, 2 April 2006

Welcome to Daylight Saving Time, Indiana. Seriously

Topic: Quickies



Residents of many counties in Indiana experienced the joy of losing an hour's sleep overnight for the very first time last night, as the entire state is now observing Daylight Saving Time. Up until today, the vast majority of the state never deviated from Eastern Standard Time, while a handful used Daylight Time and another group aligned their clocks to Chicago.



Since Indiana's arcane time system had prompted most software-makers, including Apple, to accommodate their strange rules, work-arounds and fixes to properly display the time were put in place this morning, as well. You can read Apple's Knowledge Base note on the subject. Apparently the 10.4.5 update was partially to address Daylight Saving Time changes. Sorry, Indiana Panther users; you'll have to choose Detroit or another eastern time zone city if you want to keep proper time.

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Saturday, 1 April 2006

Celebrate Apple's 30th With An Apple I Cake

Topic: Quickies



Those wacky guys at Joy of Tech manage to make Apple's 30th birthday more exciting than did Apple itself. Enjoy their recipe that will take you -- and your tastebuds -- back to April 1, 1976. I understand the cake on the right has roughly the same computing power as the device to its left.

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April Fool -- Steve Jobs Fooled Us All

Topic: Apple









I guess Steve Jobs is chuckling to himself having fooled everyone today.



At Macworld in January, Jobs suggested Apple might do something special on April 1 - its 30th birthday.



Knowing that announcements of announcements stoke the fires of speculation, Jobs got everyone expecting something special from Apple -- but the April Fool's joke is to do nothing at all.



I know I've just spent the last three hours surfing the web for a special surpise announcement, like a new $666 Apple Uno (a kit-built computer), or a lightning "everything must got for one dollar" sale at the local Apple store.



"Ha, ha-- fooled you!" he's saying to himself.



Bastard.

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Friday, 31 March 2006

Another Spacey Apple Ad

Topic: Apple









There's actually a much better Apple advert to be found in Google Maps than the iPod that made the rounds last week.



Take this iPod silhouette dancer. Note the hip haircut and how the road makes a perfect earbud cord -- remarkable!



(Via Digg)

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Thursday, 30 March 2006

More Thoughts On Apple Heroes and Villains

Topic: Apple

Thanks to all the readers for the copious feedback everyone has been sending in on the various galleries we've put together for Apple's 30th anniversary. I thought I'd take a moment to correct an oversight on my Heroes and Villains piece, offer comment on the people who were left out and to correct one persistent misconception about the article.



First, yes, I meant to refer to Apple as "lickable," not "likeable." It was a reference to when Steve Jobs said in 2000, "“We made the buttons look so good you’ll want to lick them" in OS X's Aqua interface. Apple inspires devotion, love and hate. I don't think anyone just likes them. For more famous Steve quotes, check out Owen's gallery



Secondly, I've had many people suggest people who might have or should have made the heroes list (nobody's too eager to propose additional villains, other than Steve Ballmer; Ballmer's almost too self-defeating to castigate).



Perhaps the greatest challenge I faced in creating the list was in not making it too 1984 Macintosh-centric. Yes, it was one of the best-known and most important times in the company's history, but not every important turn happened between 1979-1984. Some people just couldn't fit, which is why I regretfully left out Brian Howard, Alan Kay, Steve Capps, Chris Espinosa and many others.



I also deliberately left out any inspirations, which is why Douglas Englebart isn't on the list -- the end-point of looking that deeply is to put Alan Turing and Charles Babbage in the gallery.



I would like to add here one bonus hero, who should have been in the gallery originally -- marketeer Joanna Hoffman, the fifth member of the original Mac team and creator of the business plan for the machine. She also wrote the first draft of the Human Interface guidelines Quite famously, she convinced Steve to take a closer look at her ideas by reformating the business plan to look more like the GUI they were shooting for. She was a true Mac hero and really guided the way the Mac identity came to be. You can read more about her at Folklore.org



To check out portions of the stylish business plan, check out DigiBarn's older retrospective.

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iGoatse iPod Case

The iGoatse iPod case:



"The new iGoatse is the definitive skin for your iPod.

There are no words to describe it.

And you know why."









(Via Gizmodo)

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Wednesday, 29 March 2006

Another Apple II Lab Bites the Dust

Topic: Hardware

Vance Carruth, a third grade teacher from Huntington Beach, California, is retiring -- and his clutch of twenty Apple IIe systems will be going with him, the Mac Mothership website reports.



Even though the technology is almost thirty (30) years old, Vance's third graders fight over the chance to get use of one of these puppies.



... the school system purchased Apple IIe's for each classroom back in the 80's. In the early 90's they were replaced by IBM compatibles and most recently by Dell's. Each of the teachers were told they could take their Apple IIe home or move them to a designated storage room. Most elected to not take them home. The storage room later became Mr. Vance's classroom and he inherited the equipment. Mr. Vance decided to setup and network the desktops and has been supporting this effort with other machines that he has salvaged parts from for the last fifteen (15) years.



Now the real bad news. Mr. Carruth, (AKA Mr. Vance - Student's nickname for him) will be retiring this coming June. This comes only after 39 years of service at the same school. Once Mr. Vance has gone, there will be no other teacher to take on this support effort and the Apple IIe legacy along with Mr. Vance will vanish from Smith School.





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Elvis Costello Unplugged

Topic: Apple

The old missus and I went to see Elvis Costello at San Francisco's Davies Symphony Hall a couple of nights ago. It was an odd performance.



In the first half, the Symphony performed Costello's first full-length orchestral work, Il Sogno, while Costello sat listening in the audience.



In the second half, Costello took the stage to sing a selection of downbeat, brainy tunes, mixing classical with jazz and not much pop. Backed by the San Francisco symphony, Costello's loungey songs were dour, yet he was very droll between. He's obviously a musical genius, but it's like reading late Anthony Burgess -- a lot of work and not much fun.



I've never been a Costello fan, and towards the end I was willing it to be over, but his last piece came so close to being one of the greatest concert moments I've ever experienced, it nearly salvaged what came before. But the audience ruined it.



For the last song, Costello dispensed with his microphone, and the effect of his unamplified voice in that large auditorium was astonishing and magical. Everyone craned forward to hear, and the hushed atmosphere raised the hairs on my neck. As the song reached its climax, Costello tried to get the audience to join him singing the last bars, a "hum, de hum" refrain repeated three or four times.



The first time the audience hesitated, and the second time it almost caught. It was a fantastic moment -- hundreds of people so nearly raising the roof with a lovely vocal. But unfortunately it faltered, and after a third failed attempt Costello gave up, turning instead to the orchestra to raise a rumpus.



It was a great shame, and a little depressing. He came so close, but the stuffy old octogenarians wrecked it. I wonder if he had better luck at other venues?



Costello's orchestral tour continues. See his website for details:



Honolulu, Hawaii, March 31 and April 01; Austin, Texas, April 11; Houston, Texas, April 13; Chicago, April 18; North Bethesda, April 20; Baltimore, April 21 and 22; Boston, May 10; Brooklyn, May 12; Atlanta, May 13; Tokyo, June 02; Manchester, TN, June 16; Los Angeles, June 18, 2006.



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An Apple Tree

Topic: Hardware

There's no explanation what this Apple tree is about, except it's described as "bad art," and I must say I agree.



Oddly, there's some pretty good hardware hanging from the branches. Must be a college or something... The old multicolored iMacs sure are fruity.



(Via My Apple Menu)

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Apple Releases iPod Volume Limit Setting

In a rather preemptive move, Apple has issued a software update to address complaints (and lawsuits) that the iPod is too loud.



Apple¿ today announced a software update for the iPod¿ nano and fifth generation iPod, allowing customers to easily set their own personal maximum volume limit. The software update also gives parents the ability to set a maximum volume limit on their child’s iPod and lock it with a combination code.



“As the leading provider of digital music players, Apple continuously brings iPod customers innovative and easy to use solutions,” said Greg Joswiak, Apple’s vice president of Worldwide iPod Product Marketing. “With the increased attention in this area, we want to offer customers an easy to use option to set their own personal volume limit.”







Of course, some will still question the decision to release this solution only on the newest iPods, and the fact that the software update doesn't set the volume limit for users. I, for one, like the flexibility. You can get the software here And learn appropriate, safe volumes here.

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Monday, 27 March 2006

World's Oldest WiFi-driven Web Server

Topic: Quickies

Another for the "Because I Can!" category. A reader named Dale pointed me to his Web and FTP sites, which are powered by a Powerbook 540c, running on 12 MB of ram in a dual-boot of OS 8.1 and 7.5. Cutting edge! The Web site is quite perky, and is running on WiFi he's hacked together. Check it out in Netscape 2.1 if at all possible. Lo-fi sites are the best.

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Saturday, 25 March 2006

Archived NCAA Games on a Mac

Topic: Software

Thanks to everyone who wrote in and commented on the streaming video thread. More than one person wrote in suggesting I try the magic combination of Firefox and Flip4Mac. I'd tried Camino, Safari and Explorer, just not Firefox. It was quite funny -- several readers just emailed me a link to Flip4Mac with a note saying they've had no problems with March Madness on Demand, and I can only assume they're all FireFox users.



Together, they were able to get working on the first try, every try. I haven't been able to test a live game, because I haven't been around for a live game at my computer since I posted. I will report back on that.



Success elsewhere was less forthcoming. All of the NBC family of Web sites, including NBC.com and , still won't work, even in Firefox. Both sites claim to require Explorer 5.5 or higher on Windows XP. After switching my user agent, the Bravo site started crashing my computer until I upgraded to the latest version of Firefox. After relaunching, the sites are still broken.



I am still interested in hearing from anyone about how to reinstall Windows Media Player without using the incredibly buggy installer, which will not run under Tiger for me.



Be sure to check out this column by PBS's Mark Glazer He's noticed the same trend, triggered by the Associated Press's shift to Internet Explorer-only streaming Windows Media content. He's been following the story for the last few weeks, and has a fairly extensive Whitelist and Blacklist for non-Internet Explorer and non-Windows streaming video. He notes a site that I didn't yet single out, MTV Overdrive, which literally requires the Windows operating system to run. Definitely give it a read.



The bigger point, to the readers who are satisfied with Windows Media support for Macs and those who aren't, is that there is plenty of extremely mainstream content that is at best inconsistent and at worst impossible to use on a Mac.



Apple is pushing harder than ever to get Windows users to buy Macs -- and it's working. A close friend of mine who has used Windows for all of his 25 years recently accepted delivery of a MacBook Pro and adores it. It's the same with the reader who prompted me to post the earlier blog entry. Their stumbling block right now is the level of streaming video service.



It's a big problem for Apple that a Windows owner lured over by a system that promises to be easier to use requires them to install three browsers for maximum compatibility, mess with things like user agents and then, in many cases, still be unable to watch something as simple as bonus video from "Project Runway." Just because we power-users have found ways to cope through work-arounds does not mean that every Mac user should be expected to.



And it really doesn't get any more mainstream than the NCAA Tournament. I feel embarrassed that I didn't try FireFox before starting the thread, but how many Mac users default to Safari or Explorer and don't really know there is anything out there? Anyway, things are where they are until Flip4Mac gets better -- it is improving with every version, but it's far from ideal. Apple evangelizing their own open streaming solution is the only thing that can make a real difference. I want to see that.

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Friday, 24 March 2006

JoT on Absence of Apple Anniversary Products

Topic: Apple

Joy of Tech has another great cartoon about Mac fans and Apple's upcoming 30th anniversary on April 1. This one made me laugh out loud. Click the pic for the punchline:


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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: You Go Your Way
DATE: 03/18/2006 10:28:45
STATUS: publish
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A sad reminder to things that come and go, and how things can and may never be...



When you look at me with those eyes,

I feel those parting words get stuck in my throat

The season that we ran through barefooted should have ended

It's not that I've changed, it's no one's fault in particular

It's something we knew since before we met one another

and until we fell in love.



Feelings never change they just lose their passion.

You go back your way

and I'll go on mine.



Goodbye to our days of drifting

There's no way I can forget.

I loved you so much I can't ever forget you.

when your memories of the carefree play

between a burning passion and a naive kindness

blame it on you, I too feel that pain, somewhere in a different city.



Feelings are just feelings, time just passes

how many distorted dawns will I face by myself ?



The magic power to stop time,

doesn't seem to have been within me

Why did we come this far?

We loved one another didn't we?



"I don't wanna be apart from you"

As you shushed me with your hand over my quivering mouth

You couldn't hide your tears either, because the moon lit them.



Feelings never change they just lose their passion.

You go back your way

and I'll go on mine.


Feelings never change, they don't just up and disappear.

It would be nice, if we could see each other when it's just as good old friends.

so, for now dry your tears, and smile like you always do.
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: But Me
DATE: 03/13/2006 13:54:04
STATUS: publish
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You are a sentence that has been defeated/

Fructification..., unable to admit (a life’s implicating story)

It’s a shame that I already know the ending

However it’s too late to prevent it



The authenticity of the way you tell your secret.

However we still don’t know each other.

Only a heart beat away,

But your heart is forever hard to grasp...



For you, I’ve cried, been hurt, but those were nothing

But I want to inform you if we’ve ever cared about each other?

Too many ‘ifs’ gives a negative type of outcome

It seems friends has a bit more than the other.

For me, you’ve laughed, kissed but you are not happy,

But I can’t enter your heart’s knot (can’t enter your heart’s knot)

Too many ‘ifs’ gives a negative type of outcome

You have yours; I have mine, our individual loneliness
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Satan's Beatitudes
DATE: 02/22/2006 22:12:00
STATUS: publish
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* blessed are they who are too tired and busy to go to church on sunday for they are my best workers.


* blessed are they who are bored with minister's mannerisims and mistakes, for they get nothing out of the sermon.


* blessed are they who gossip, for they cause strife and divisions that pleases me.


* blessed are they who are easily offended, for they soon get angry and quit.



* blessed are they who do not give their offerings to carry on God's work, for they are my best helpers.



* blessed are they who confess that they love God, but hate their own brothers and sisters, for they will be with me forever.



* blessed are the troublemakers, for they shall be called the children of the devil.



* blessed is he or she who has no time to pray, for that person will be my prey.





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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Just Friends
DATE: 02/18/2006 10:13:56
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Forwarded Message from Sky (luv ya sis!)



"Just" friends!?!

Guys and girls being "just" friends. Not always easy, and sure as hell complicated at times. But yet, its fun. There are things that you just don't talk about with your guy friends. That's where the girl steps in, sweet, caring, sensitive - the little angels (hah!). There's also a certain playful element to these friendships that you just can't have with people of the same sex .


Here are some of the types of friendships that exist between guys and girls.



1: The Appeaser friendship


This is when the guy is head over heals for the girl. Worships the ground she walks on. Praises her all the time. Buys her gifts for no reason. Loves to secretly smell her hair. Agrees with everything she says, and does everything in his power to see that she is happy. Now and then gets a pat on the head in return. Dreams of fathering her children - will never get farther than perhaps having to baby-sit them. Might also have aspects of a Use-and-abuse friendship.


2: Leave-you-hanging friendship



Guy sees girl. Guy thinks girl is cute. Guy becomes friends with girl. Guy tells girl his feelings for her. Girl acts surprised. Girl might say "I'm not ready for a relationship right now". Girl conveniently forgets to mention that she doesn't like him in that way, and never will for that matter. Girl and guy still remain friends. Guy is hoping girl will eventually fall for him, or will become "ready" for a relationship. Never happens. Girl is just happy with the attention he lavishes on her - ego boost.


3: The Missed-Chance friendship



Guy and girl are great friends. There always was a spark, the chemistry was there. For reasons unknown to them, they always held a special place in each other's lives. No one acted upon it though, and before you know it, girl gets married. Guy is still friends with girl - thinks the world of her. Friendship grows even stronger.


4: The Relationship-that's-not-quite-a-relationship friendship



Guy and girl think they are best friends. While in actual fact, they are in a non-physical relationship. They do everything a couple does. Go to movies together, have candle-light dinners, strolls on the beach, endless phone conversations etc etc. But no one has admitted their feelings. Both are in denial that there is anything but a friendship going on. The rest of the world is sure they are going out. For the life of them, they can't understand why.


5: The Use-and-abuse friendship



Guy is in love with girl. Girl knows this and loves the power she has. Takes advantage of poor guy, who is more than happy that he can be off service to her. Girl uses guy cruelly, and the best part is, she gets him to 'volunteer' to do things for her. How?


"I have to drop off my dirty laundry to the laundromat. But I'm so tired. I wish I didn't have to go?" Followed by fluttering of the eyes.



Before you can say "use-and-abuse", guy is already racing to the laundromat with her clothes.


6: The Complain-a-friend friendship



This is where the girl only remembers the guy, when she needs to complain about something. She calls him, or meets him, simply to vent about her problems. Guy may try to slip in something about himself, but girl is too self-absorbed to realise that, and brings the topic back to her problems. Girl keeps guy in check by telling him what a great listener he is, and none of her other friends are like that. Guy gets his doggy biscuit.



7: The By-my-rules-only friendship



This friendship can be in conjunction with any of the other types of friendships. Girl will only meet guy on her terms. Girl has full rights to cancel appointments that she made herself last minute. Girl also doesn't need to return any calls made by the guy, but guy must be available at the snap of her fingers. Guy should expect nothing, except what girl decides to offer him. Take it or leave it.



8: The cozy friendship



This is when guy and girl are great friends. They're totally comfortable in each other's company, and have deep respect and trust for each other. They can speak their mind, and be at ease with silence. They don't get overly emotional, and respect each others space and time. Can talk about absolutely anything under the sun. Guy and girl don't think of each other in a romantic way - never crosses their mind. Has the potential to become ugly if one of them does start developing feelings.



9: The Hit-and-run friendship



This is an explosive friendship. Guy and girl become friends very quickly. They spend an insane amount of time together, and really dig each other's company. Guy thinks girl likes him, and is leading him on. Makes his move and professes his love for her. She runs like there is no tomorrow.


Appendix: The ex-lover friendship
This type of friendship doesn't exist. Don't fool yourselves. A guy and girl can't be just friends if they had a history together.

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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Da First Taym
DATE: 02/17/2006 23:50:24
STATUS: publish
BODY:

The first time I fell in love was long ago.

I didn't know how to give my love at all.

The next time I settled for what felt so close.

But without romance, you're never gonna fall.

After everything I've learned

Now it's finally my turn.

This is the last time I'll fall... in love.

The first time we walked under that starry sky,

there was a moment when everything was clear.

I didn't need to ask or even wonder why, because each question is answered when your near.

and I'm wise enough to know when a miracle unfolds, this is the last time i'll fall in love.

Now don't hold back, just let me know.

Could i be moving much too fast or way too slow.

'Cause all of my life, I've waited for this day.

To find that once in a lifetime, this is it, I'll never be the same.

You'll never know what it's taken me to say these words.

And now that I've said them, they could never be enough.

As far as I can see, there's only you and only me.
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: I BELIEVE IN PIRACY!!!
DATE: 02/14/2006 14:50:51
STATUS: publish
BODY:

I believe that man will go crazy without music. i believe no one can live without music. it is however taken for granted. there's always not enough share for the artists! and to think we provide the music!!! and i say that we should pirate music all the more! why? to get rid of recording companies that take artists for granted. out of the $20 cd that you buy, only 50 cents go to the artist and $2 for the production cost of the cd itself. where does everything else go? to those labels you see on the cd jackets. how do they do this? simple, by forming anI BELIEVE IN PIRACY!!! association of recording companies and agree upon a fixed price-rip-off. therefore, we should encourage file sharing with a pay-per-copy system, and the money goes straight to the artist! this way, the file sharing program companies get more sponsors, while the artists get bigger pay, and we don't get ripped off! good deal, eh?:) how about those who don't have access to modern technology? we start putting up stores which can burn you a copy of your favorite downloaded songs on a blank cd and pay them the cost, of course, this time there's an added minimal charge for the service. but you get to pick out specific songs of different artists in just one cd, no need to buy the whole package. plus, we get to provide more business opportunities with these stores. will this ever work? It's an idea, and we will never know if we don't try.


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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: BLINDERS!!!!!!
DATE: 02/13/2006 06:31:52
STATUS: publish
BODY:
If I had a dime for every time you walked away,

I could afford to not give a shit

and buy a drink and drown the day

But your pockets, they are empty,

yeh, and mine are times two

So why not make an about-face,

and accept the love I send to you?

You're never gonna be content if you don't try,

try to see outside your line.

There you go, you did it again!

You act as if there's blinders on your eyes.

Should I apologize if what I say burns your ears and stains

your eyes?!

Oh, did I crack your shell?

When it falls away, you'll see we exist as well!

Like a bottle with the cork stuck,

your true ingredients trapped inside.

Through the cloudy glass we catch a glimpse of you,

I guess the hard shell represents your pride.

Oh, if only it could be different

we could uncover the you, you deny.

Between two, a small discrepancy,

one complicates and one simplifies.

TAKE THOSE FUCKING BLINDERS OFF YOUR EYES!!

So if I had a dime for every time you walked away,

you could bet your bottom dollar that

I'd be filthy rich by noon today!!


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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Suddenly
DATE: 02/11/2006 13:42:53
STATUS: publish
BODY:
A thousand eyes looking at me

But yours is the look that goes right through me and I

Cannot Hide from your stare

Should I let you in - do I dare

Some other hands have tried before

But yours is the touch that makes me want more and I

Cannot hide the urgency

To have you lying here with me.

A thousand words have tried to say

But yours are the ones that'll never fade away and I

Cannot hide from their sound

I am mesmerized spinning round and round and

Some other hearts have tried to steal mine

But yours is the one that I now hold dear

I'll do what it takes to keep you here

I'm a selfish fool and I have no fear.

A thousand times I've tried to stay

Alone by pushing you away

Time after time and tear after tear

I find myself back here with you

A thousand visions have come to me

Promising serenity

And as I struggle to find the source of this peace

I always end up with your kiss.

Suddenly in my life

There's something that's got me mystified and I

Cannot fight it but I can try

To keep the wonder of it alive.
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: I Wanna...
DATE: 02/04/2006 11:33:14
STATUS: publish
BODY:
I wanna go to a place where I can say that I’m all right

and I’m staying there with you.

I wanna know if there could be any way

That there’s no fight and I’m safe and sound with you.



And every time I look, I thought you were there.

But it was just my imagination.

I don’t see it anymore cause I see through you now



What’s stopping me? I get stuck again.

Is it really OK? It’s never OK for me.

What’s got into me? I get lost again.

Is it really OK? It’s never going to be.



And every time I look, I thought you were there.

But it was just my imagination.

I don’t see it anymore cause I see through you now.



I wanna go to a place where I can say that I’m all right

and I’m staying there with you.

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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: My Fields of Hope
DATE: 01/30/2006 10:52:36
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Beneath a veil so cold,

You deeply sleep, all alone.

The melody of prayer; on the lonely fields,

a little light shined.



I watched as you dreamed.

You laughed like a child.

So dear, and yet so far -

That is the promise of our future.



That one day, on a green morning,

One day, we will make it there

Because in this wintered sky

We still believe in

Fields of Hope



On the day we were born, we were embraced.

And now we search for those gentle hands again.

The melody of prayer; one vanishes,

And all begins again; a powerless, painful continuation.



One day, to that green morning,

We'll cross through all these nights

Because that is the place each one of us searches for.



Now, within my own heart,

I want to keep you warm.

So dear, and yet so far -

In the name of peace

Fields of Hope



So dear, and yet so far -

The fields of promise

Fields of Hope

Fields of Hope
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: The Way
DATE: 01/22/2006 22:52:54
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Theres something bout the way you look tonight, Theres something bout the way that i can't take my eyes off you.

Theres something bout the way your lips invite, maybe its the way that i get nervous when your around. And I want you to be mine and if u need a reason why,



[Chorus:]

It's in the way that you move me, and the way that you tease me, the way that I want you tonight.

It's in the way that you hold me, and the way that you know me, when I can't find the right words to say.

You feel it in the way, you feel it in the way.



Theres something bout how you stay on my mind, theres something bout the way that I whisper your name when I'm asleep. Oh girl no.

Maybe its the look you get in your eyes. Oh baby its the way that makes me feel to see you smile.

And the reasons they may change but what i'm feeling stays the same.



[Chorus]



I can't put my fingers on just what it is that makes me love you, you baby.

So don't ask me to describe, I get all choked up inside, just thinking bout the way.



[Chorus]



There's something bout the way you look tonight.

There's nothing more to say then, I feel it in the way.


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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Is this It?
DATE: 01/21/2006 11:57:28
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Nothing is going the way it should

I hastily subdue these feelings of impatience

All this anxiety and nervousness is sending my heart into disorder

Just a boy hugging his knees in the midst of it all



Shivering and in tears, I repress all my regret

I cried all night, but now it seems dawn is breaking...



So, undoubtedly you're right.

Even though right now I may try to turn back

And I keep on being stubborn about it, though I know it's monotonous

I'll start walking again, this time even farther, and I won't give up



If I could get just one more chance...



I'll keep it all locked away in my heart

Until my dreams come true...



I surrendered myself to this dismal emptiness in the most critical of times

No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't quite reach aiming for the shore

I had to swim for my life.



Withstanding the current, I can't even raise my voice

It could have been the end right there, but...



I don't think that love can save everything, but there's something about your smile

that somehow healed my heart, and in your lips.

I found the strength to stand up again



If only I could get just one more chance...



The flow of the river is intense even today

But I won't let go of your hand.

I'll believe in the love that's in my heart forever

Until my dreams come true...



I don't think that love can save everything, but there's something about your smile

that somehow healed my heart, and in your lips.

I found the strength to stand up again



So, undoubtedly you're right.

Even though right now I may try to turn back,

And I keep on being stubborn about it, though I know it's monotonous

I'll start walking again, this time even farther, and this time I won't give up



If only I could get just one more chance...



The flow of the river is intense even today

But I won't let go of your hand.

I'll believe in the love that's in my heart forever

Until my dreams come true...


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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Evergreen
DATE: 01/16/2006 11:14:05
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Evergreen

L'ArcenCiel



I lie awake beside the windowsill

Like a flower in a vase

A moment caught in glass



The rays of sunlight come and beckon me

To a sleepy dreamy haze

A sense of summer days



If only I could stop the flow of time

Turn the clock to yesterday

Erasing all the pain



I've only memories of happiness

Such pleasure we have shared

I'd do it all again



This scenery is evergreen

As buds turn into leaves, the colours live and breathe

This scenery is evergreen

Your tears are falling silently



So full of joy, you are a child of spring

With a beauty that is pure

An innosence endures



You flow right through me like a medicine

Bringing quiet to my soul

Without you I'm not whole



This scenery is evergreen

I need you far too much , I long to feel your touch

This scenery is evergreen

You've always been so dear to me



This scenery is evergreen

It sorrow at the sight of seeing you so sad

This scenery is evergreen

I wish that I could dry your tears



The bells have rung, the time has come

I cannot find the words to say my last goodbye

This scenery is evergreen

You've always been so dear to me
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Without The Girl
DATE: 01/12/2006 18:48:59
STATUS: publish
BODY:
This is the latest of my old song collection that I've been listening to lately.� There is this girl I like but her heart is with somebody else.� Maybe it's just me.�� But I love her.� Shoud I just wait for her to come to me or should I do something about it?� I just don't know.� You know who you are.



Daniel Bedingfield

"Without The Girl"



And mama told me if I want her. I gotta take it slow

You just can’t tell her, you gotta find other ways to let her know

But I don’t understand this game

This is so new to me

I wanna tell her

I wanna take her in my arms



Give her time and maybe one-day she’ll come around

And see the love I am offering

‘Cause I don’t wanna live without the girl

Heaven knows everyday I pray

That someday she will belong to me

‘Cause I don’t wanna live without the girl



She is my sunshine but her heart belongs to another man

She looks right through me, she only ever though of us as friends

But I’ll keep holding back my heart

I will not let her see

I gonna bide my time

until the day she comes to me



Give her time and maybe one-day she’ll come around

And see the love I’m offering

‘Cause I don’t wanna live without the girl

Heaven knows, everyday I pray

That someday she will belong to me

‘Cause I don’t wanna live without the girl



Give her time and maybe one-day she’ll come around

And see the love I’m offering

‘Cause I don’t wanna live without the girl

Heaven knows, everyday I pray

That someday she will belong to me

‘Cause I don’t wanna live without the girl
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Only One
DATE: 01/02/2006 20:10:37
STATUS: publish
BODY:

Yellow Card

Only One

Ocean Avenue



Broken this fragile thing now

And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces

And I've thrown my words all around

But I can't, I can't give you a reason



I feel so broken up (so broken up)

And I give up (I give up)

I just want to tell you so you know



Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only one

I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you

You are my only, my only one



Made my mistakes, let you down

And I can't, I can't hold on for too long

Ran my whole life in the ground

And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone



And something's breaking up (breaking up)

I feel like giving up (like giving up)

I won't walk out until you know



Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only one

I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you

You are my only my only one



Here I go so dishonestly

Leave a note for you my only one

And I know you can see right through me

So let me go and you will find someone



Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only one

I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you

You are my only, my only one

My only one

My only one

My only one

You are my only, my only one
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: I Am
DATE: 12/24/2005 05:20:30
STATUS: publish
BODY:

I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one

Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from.

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately

All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind

I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do

Or who I'm supposed to be

I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn

I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn

I'm surrounded by a identity crisis everywhere I turn

Am I the only one to notice?

I can't be the only one who's learned.
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Afternoon Shower
DATE: 12/23/2005 02:52:51
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Song a former bandmate and I wrote and are STILL working on over too much coffee, alcohol and an ample supply of cigarettes. Hehe la lang. Just wanted to post it here. Working on the final arrangements. Whew!! :)



That afternoon a light sunshower passed by

And we were near the ocean

We ran across the wet asphalt



In the shadows of a dark beat down warehouse

We stared up and hid from the rain for a while



*You are humming to yourself, I am listening

I melody I never heard of

In such a soft voice almost fading

and soon disappearing



On the way home to the city

We were caught in a traffic jam

What we talked about being together

You probably don't remember either



The radio played a sad news of some stranger

and someone's boring ballad



You are humming a song I don't know

It's helplessly flowing around

I try to say something and I search for the words

But they all fade away



I don't remember the melody

that you were humming and I was listening to

The things we lose, the things we can protect

It's only a small difference



*Repeat




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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Mad Sexy Cool Girl
DATE: 12/09/2005 03:25:30
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Mad Sexy Cool Girl - Babyface

Grown, Sexy (2005)



baby, oh yeah

baby, oh yeah



You don't ever bring no drama to the game

and my drama don't be scaring you away

you dont ever talk to much

exactly just enough

you know how and when and where and what to say



it aint like i gotta tell you your so fine (your so fine)

you been gettin complements since you was nine (damn)

its like your perfect (...)

a dimond in the rough

I knows you give me nothin else but love (love)



You are such a mad sexy cool girl

how does someone turn into you girl

how do you explain

what you do

what you say

how you be

how you play

how you love

everyday

how your constantly the same

how you give

never hate

and you dont ever change

be consistantly that way

your a mad sexy cool girl, and i love you that way

baby, oohhhhh





you be ruling with a certain shade of cool (shade of cool)

i dont know no body half as fresh as you

i be checkin your behaviour

oh baby you got so much flavour

sometimes i wanna call you juicy fruit (juicy)



it aint like i gotta tell you your a star (your a star)

you be shining and be sparkling in the dark

girl you so perfect (...)

you my dimond in the rough

i know you give me nothin else but love





You are such a mad sexy cool girl

how does someone turn into you girl

how do you explain

what you do

what you say

how you be

how you play

how you love

everyday

how your constantly the same

how you give

never hate

and you dont ever change

be consistantly that way

your a mad sexy cool girl, and i love you the same



(baby) how does someone

so beautiful

so approachable

none so adourable

(baby) guess your my kinda wonderful

my dream come true



You are such a mad sexy cool girl (sexy cool girl)

how does someone turn into you girl (into you girl)

how do you explain

what you do

what you say

how you be

how you play

how you love

everyday

how your constantly the same

how you give

never hate

and you dont ever change

be consistantly that way

your a mad sexy cool girl



You are such a mad sexy cool girl (ohh baby yes you are)

how does someone turn into you girl (turn into you)

how do you explain

what you do

what you say

how you be

how you play (ooohh)

how you love

everyday

how your constantly the same

how you give

never hate

and you dont ever change (never change)

be consistantly that way

your a mad sexy cool girl

(Your a mad sexy cool girl)



baby *fade out*

how does someone turn into you girl

how do you explain

what you do

how you be

how you play

how you love

everyday

how your constantly the same


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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: The Guy's Rules
DATE: 12/06/2005 23:26:55
STATUS: publish
BODY:

The Guys' Rules

At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down.

Finally, the guys' side of the story. (I must admit, it's pretty good.)

We always hear "the rules" From the female side.



Now here are the rules from the male side.

These are our rules!

Please note... these are all numbered "1" ON PURPOSE!

1. Men ARE NOT mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down

We need it up, you need it down You don't hear us

complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want.

Let us be clear on this one:

Subtle hints do not work!

Strong hints do not work!

Obvious hints do not work!

Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly Acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only If you want help solving it. That's what we do.

Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.

In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls,

don't Expect us to act like soap opera guys.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one

of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.

1. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us how you want it done.

Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.

Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit.

We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will Be scratched. We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing,"

We will act like nothing's wrong.

We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1 . If you ask a question you don't want an answer to,

Expect an answer you don't want to hear.



1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear Is fine...Really

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation, or golf.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this.

Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;



But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.



Pass this to as many men as you can - to give them a laugh.

Pass this to as many women as you can - to give them a CLUE!!!
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: jules
DATE: 12/07/2005 01:46:24
Tsk.. tsk.. girls, this is it. Guys are really hopeless cases :(


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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Paulie
DATE: 12/07/2005 05:21:02
Nah. Not everyone are. :) But some of us could be hopeless romantics. :)
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: jules
DATE: 12/07/2005 05:33:36
I still believe they only exist in soap operas.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Paulie
DATE: 12/07/2005 05:36:34
yeah. nothing's impossible, right? are you still in the office? aren't you supposed to be home?
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Entry for December 04, 2005
DATE: 12/04/2005 13:59:23
STATUS: publish
BODY:

1) When kissing, make sure your eyes are closed (you can peek a little, but nothing more!).



2! ) When you are kissing someone, make sure it is not someone else's b/f or g/f!



3) You may NOT eat pizza anytime before you make out.



4) If a person is a bad kisser, you may NOT stop and leave at anytime-it's rude.



5) A person with braces may not kiss another person who has them.



6) When kissing, make sure your hands are where they're allowed (they can wander sometimes, and some people don't like that).



7) NEVER ask someone if they're a good kisser-you will either get a wrong answer, or the truth will hurt you.



8) If you were expecting more than kissing, don't complain-you will get less the next time.



9) Kissing more than one 1 person in a! day can result in you not being allowed to kiss one of

those people anymore.



10) Don't kiss someone for the first time while you are laying in their bed.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Joycie
DATE: 12/04/2005 21:22:10
haha. is this list something u made up urself?
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Paulie
DATE: 12/07/2005 01:43:56
nah. i just got it from someone else. It's just amusing though. That's why i decided to post it. :)
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: I like this song. Senti mode. =P
DATE: 12/01/2005 09:51:59
STATUS: publish
BODY:

No Me Ames Lyrics

Jennifer Lopez featuring Marc Anthony.







Dime por qué lloras

De felicidad

Y por qué te ahogas

Por la soledad

Di por qué me tomas, fuerte así,

mis manos, y tus pensamientos te van llevando



Yo te quiero tanto

Y por qué será

Loco testarudo, no lo dudes más,

aunque en el futuro haya un muro enorme,

yo no tengo miedo, quiero enamorarme.



No me ames, porque pienses que

parezco diferente

Tú no piensas que es lo justo,

ver pasar el tiempo juntos

No me ames, que comprendo,

la mentira que sería.

Si tu amor no merezco, no me ames,

mas quédate otro día



No me ames, porque estoy perdido,

porque cambié el mundo, porque es el

destino, porque no se puede, somos un espejo,

Y tú así serías lo que yo

de mí reflejo

No me ames, para estar muriendo,

dentro de una guerra llena de

arrepentimientos, no me ames para estar

en tierra, quiero alzar el

vuelo, con

tu gran amor por el azul del cielo



(SHORT BREAK)



No sé qué decirte, esa es la verdad,

si la gente quiere, sabe lastimar

Tú y yo partiremos, ellos no se mueven,

pero en este cielo sola no me dejes



No me dejes, no me dejes, no me escuches,

si te digo "no me ames".

No me dejes, no desarmes,

mi corazón con ese "no me ames"

No me ames, te lo ruego, mi amargura, dèjame

Sabes bien, que no puedo, que es inútil,

que siempre te amaré



No me ames, pues te haré sufrir con este

corazòn que se llenó de mil inviernos

No me ames, para así olvidarte de tus días grises, quiero que me ames

sólo por amarme

No me ames, tú y yo volaremos,

uno con el otro y seguiremos siempre juntos

Este amor es como el sol que sale tras de la tormenta

Como dos cometas en la misma estela



-Here's the translation of the song.� NICE.



"Dont love me" >> "You don't love me"



Tell me why you're crying...

Of happiness.

And why are you drowning?

for loneliness

Tell me why you take my hands so strongly, and let your

thoughts carry you away



I love you so much

And why is that?

Crazy stubborn person, stop doubting it any longer

Even though in the future there will be a huge wall

I'm not afraid, I want to fall in love



Dont love me, because you think that

I may appear different

You dont think its right

For us to see time go by together?

Dont love me, I understand

the lie that it would be

If your love, I don;t deserve, dont love me,

just stay another day



Dont love me, because I am lost,

Because I changed the world,Because its destiny

Because it can't be, We both are like a mirror,

And you would be my own reflection

Don't love me, you would be dying

Within a war full of regrets,dont love me to be on this

Earth, I would like to throw your enormous love

thru the blue sky.



(SHORT BREAK)



I dont know what to say to you, that's the truth

When people want to, they know how to hurt

You and I will depart, they would not move,

But in this sky dont leave me alone



Dont leave me, dont leave me, dont listen to me

If I say to you "dont love me"

Dont let me. Do not disable

my heart with that "Dont love me"

Dont love me, I'm begging you, leave me with my bitternes

You know well, that I can't, that its useless,

That I will always love you



Dont love me, because I would make you suffer with this heart of mine

that was filled with a thousand winters.

Dont love me, so that way you can forget of your gray days.

I want you to love me, just to love me

Dont love me, you and I will fly,

With with the other, and we will always be together

This love is like the sun that comes out after the storm

Like 2 comets on the same path
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: It Doesn't Interest me and It Does
DATE: 11/25/2005 03:20:50
STATUS: publish
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It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing. It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can dance with wildness. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy. I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it's not pretty, and if you can source your own life from its presence. It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: jules
DATE: 11/26/2005 02:00:32
"I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it's not pretty, and if you can source your own life from its presence." -- If only our answer to this is "Yes I can," what a wonderful place the earth will be for everybody.

Nice blog, Paulie. :)
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Paulie
DATE: 11/28/2005 03:56:06
Thanks Julie.! :)
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Entry for November 13, 2005
DATE: 11/13/2005 03:12:56
STATUS: publish
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I'm really sorry. But this account is already full. It's a pity that yahoo only created this to have up to 250 friends. It's so not fair!!!



I have to apologize to the others that have been adding me lately. This account won't accept anymore.



So I decided to create my second account.



It is jerod_struden@sbcglobal.net



This is dedicated to my friends, who want to be my friends, and those that I tend to forget.



This is also a sort of awakening for me since my first account was more on my problems and all that. This second account will be to the new happy life I have now and those who want to be a part of it.



So add me up!!




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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: He wishes for the Cloths of Heaven
DATE: 11/11/2005 00:50:03
STATUS: publish
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He wishes for the Cloths of Heaven - Yeats



Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,

Enwrought with golden and silver light,

The blue and the dim and the dark cloths

Of night and light and the half-light,

I would spread the cloths under your feet:

But I, being poor, have only my dreams;

I have spread my dreams under your feet;

Tread softly because you tread upon my dreams.






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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Sorry for the Stupid Things
DATE: 11/11/2005 00:23:02
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Babyface - Sorry for The Stupid Things

Grown and Sexy



Sometimes we wish for the better

When we have it good as it gets

Sometimes the grass isn't greener

As soon as we find out, we forget

Sometimes a fool doesn't know he's a fool

Sometimes a dog, he don't know he's a dog

Sometimes I do stupid things to you

When I really don't mean it at all



chorus



Sometimes a man is gon' be a man

Its not an excuse, its just how it is

Sometimes a wrong, don't know that they wrong

Sometimes the strong, ain't always so strong

Sometimes a girl is gon' be a girl

She don't want to deal with all the drama in your world

God knows I don't mean to give it to you

So girl, I'm sorry for the stupid things

I wish I didn't do but I do



Ohh

Oh no

Ohh



Sometimes I wish I was smarter

Wish I was a bit more like you

Not making stupid decisions made at the last minute

You live to regret when its through

Well sometimes a fool, doesn't know he's a fool

And sometimes a dog, he don't know he's a dog

But sometimes I do stupid things to you

When I really didn't mean it at all



chorus



Sometimes a man is gon' be a man

Its not an excuse, its just how it is

Sometimes a wrong, don't know that they wrong

Sometimes the strong, can't always be strong

Sometimes a girl, is gon' be a girl

She don't want to deal with all the drama in your world

God knows I don't mean to give it to you

So girl, I'm sorry for the stupid things

I wish I didn't do but I do



Bridge



Sometimes a fool doesn't know he's a fool

And sometimes a dog, he don't know he's a dog

But sometimes I do stupid things to you

When I really didn't mean it at all

At all . . .at all



chorus x 2



Sometimes a man is gon' be a man

Its not an excuse, its just how it is

Sometimes a wrong, don't know that they wrong

Sometimes the strong, ain't always so strong

Sometimes a girl, is gon' be a girl

She don't want to deal with all the drama in your world

God knows I don't mean to give it to you girl

So girl I'm sorry for the stupid things

I wish I didn't do but I do
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: The Adorable Woman
DATE: 11/06/2005 14:29:46
STATUS: publish
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想要有直昇機

xiang yao you zhi sheng ji

I want a helicopter



想要和妳飛到宇宙去

xiang yao he ni fei dao yu zhou qu

I want to fly with you into outer space



想要和妳融化在一起

xiang yao he ni rong hua zai yi qi

I want to melt into you



融化在銀河裡

rong hua zai yin he li

Melt in the Milky Way



我每天每天每天在想想想想著妳

wo mei tian mei tian mei tian zai xiang xiang xiang xiang zhe ni

Everyday I think and think and think of you



這樣的甜蜜　讓我開始相信命運

zhe yang de tian mi / rang wo kai shi xiang xin ming yun

This sweetness I feel makes me begin to believe in destiny



感謝地心吸引力　讓我碰到妳

gan xie di xin xi yin li / rang wo peng dao ni

I thank gravity for letting me meet you



漂亮的讓我面紅的可愛女人

piao liang de rang wo mian hong de ke ai nü ren

The beautiful Cute Woman who makes me blush



溫柔的讓我心疼的可愛女人

wen rou de rang wo xin teng de ke ai nü ren

The tender Cute Woman who makes my heart ache



聰明的讓我感動的可愛女人

cong ming de rang wo gan dong de ke ai nü ren

The smart Cute Woman who makes me feel touched



壞壞的讓我瘋狂的可愛女人

huai huai de rang wo feng kuang de ke ai nü ren

The naughty Cute Woman who drives me crazy



世界這樣大而我而我只是隻小小小的螞蟻

shi jie zhe yang da er wo er wo zhi shi zhi xiao xiao xiao de ma yi

The world is so big yet I am small like a little ant



但我要盡全力全力全力保護妳

dan wo yao jin quan li quan li quan li bao hu ni

But I want to use all my strength to protect you
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: OT and a visit to my Grandfather
DATE: 11/02/2005 06:06:41
STATUS: publish
BODY:
I was recovering from a really bad fever after finding out I was sick a couple of days ago. A good friend of mine from the office suddenly remembered me and just texted me out of the blue. She remembered me from a song she had heard on the radio. Touching.. I'm just thankful that you do still think of me at times..



Anyway, what happened then was I was talking to some of my officemates and I had mentioned to them that I had felt cold. So I closed my jacket. My throat started to hurt a couple of hours later and I was already starting to feel severe, not mild discomfort. So I asked them again, am I burning up or something? Because I was already starting to feel dizzy and somewhat queezy. Jeez, I was. So I clocked out and went to the clinic. And lo and behold I was already near 42 degrees. I was already running a fever. The nurse asked me if I wanted to rest there or go home. I told her that I would rather go home and sleep in my bed because it was much softer and more comfortable to that rickety old crap of a hospital bed they got there. Of course, I didn't say that to her literally. I was still very lucid at the time. Maybe I was. Maybe I wasn't. Who cares? So home i went.



I felt horrible. I was so full of medicine that all I could taste up to now is still tylenol or amoxylin. Bleaghh!! I could hardly sleep because of the extreme nausea I was suffering from I called in sick. I couldn't care less if it was a block off day because I wouldn't be of much use anyway with me in that condition. Big deal.



Since my shift was reverse-mid, I slept. I felt well enough to get out of bed in the afternoon. By the evening I felt strong enough to walk around. After an hour or so, I decided not to push my luck and went to sleep. I reported for my scheduled 6th day ot for today. Yes. Today. It went quite well, considering it was the beginning of the month and I preferred to start it right. Great. Just great. Relax. You're not well enough yet. So I just kept my composure long enough to get through my OT. Cool. Not bad. One, two, easy. File and printer sharing. Not bad.



So after my OT, I went home. I played with my puppies whom my brother's girlfriend named (much to my great dismay) Madeline and Pepito. Jeez. Aren't dogs only able to remember two syllables for their names or what? What they be called when they grow up? Maddy? Peppy? Cute. Real cute. Well, they are. They're Japanese Spitzes.



Afterwards I went with my brother and his girlfriend to Tomas Morato and they ate at Don Henrico's. I decided to be alone for at least an hour and do some contemplation as to what has happened in my life. It went by really fast. It's amazing if you have a pack of cigarettes on the ready. Real handy for those dull moments. A girl went up and talked to me asking to share a seat. Like ano ba? Ang luwag naman diyan sa Gloria Jean's. There were only six of us there. But what the hell. So I asked her to sit down and I chatted with her for a bit. Cute. Sexy. Whatever. Just not my type. I'm no looker. But I still get the girls. Gee? I wonder why? My brother and his girlfriend arrived and I had to say good bye to the girl who had a pained expression on her face. We exchanged numbers and I said my good byes. My brother's girlfriend just shook her head in disappointment. What did I do now?



Anyway, that aside, my brother probably felt me thinking it, so he asked if I wanted to go to Loyola. I said yes, but I suggested that we drop by the house and fetch anyone who wanted to come along. My cousin came and we brought Madeline and Pepito. And so off we went. We stayed a couple of hours in Loyola. I was talking with them and playing with the puppies who were incessantly following everywhere I went. When they fell asleep, we decided to pray. After our prayer, I asked them to wait for me for a few minutes. I wanted to be alone and talk to my grandfather. My brother saw that look in my eye, and left me alone.



As soon as I had turned my back on then, I couldn't hold my tears back any longer. I just sat in front of my grandfather's tombstone and cried. I talked to him for a few minutes and said I was sorry. I was sorry for not being what everyone expects me to be. Sorry for letting him down. Sorry for letting myself down. I told him I was tired. But I can't quit just yet. Not yet. Not just yet. It hurts just knowing that he died in front of you. It hurts knowing that there was nothing you could do. I just miss him.




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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: rhoze
DATE: 11/07/2005 20:41:32
elo! musta na.nagkasakit ka pala.ok ka na ngyon.i hope magtuloy tuloy na.take care your self.god bles.
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: All The Way North
DATE: 10/25/2005 23:39:35
STATUS: publish
BODY:
後視鏡裏的世界 越來越遠的道別

hou shi jing li de shi jie yue lai yue yuan de dao bie

The world from the rear view mirror goes further and further away as if it were saying goodbye ...



你轉身向背 側臉還是很美

ni zhuan shen xiang bei che lian hai shi hen mei

You turn around and your view from the side is still very beautiful...


我用眼光去追 竟聽見你的淚

wo yong yan guang qu zui jing ting jian ni de lei

I use my eyes to pursue you, yet I hear your tears...



在車窗外面排徊 是我錯失的機會

zai che chuang wai mian pai hui shi wo cuo shi de ji hui

Outside the car window is my missed opportunity...



你站的方位 跟我中間隔著淚

ni zhan de fang wei gen wo zhong jian ge zhe lei

Your position and mine are separated by tears..



街景一直在後退 你的崩潰在窗外零碎

jie jing yi zhi zai hou tui ni de beng kui zai chuang wai ling sui

The street views are continuously receding, you start to fragment outside the window...



*Chorus



我一路向北 離開有你的季節

wo yi lu xiang bei li kai you ni de ji jie

I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you...



你說你好累 已無法再愛上誰

ni shuo ni hao lei yi wu fa zai ai shang shui

You said you were already tired and cannot fall in love with anybody again...



風在山路吹 過往的畫面全都是我不對

feng zai shan lu chui guo wang de hua mian quan dou shi wo bu dui

The wind is blowing on the mountain road, all of our previous memories were my wrongdoings...



細數慚愧 我傷你幾回

xi su can kui wo shang ni ji hui

Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many times...�



我一路向北 離開有你的季節

wo yi lu xiang bei li kai you ni de ji jie

I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you...



方向盤周圍 回轉著我的後悔

fang xiang pan zhou wei hui zhuan zhe wo de hou hui

Around the steering wheel rotates my feelings of regret...



我加速超越 卻甩不掉緊緊跟隨的傷悲

wo jia sui chao yue que shuai bu diao jing jing gen shui de shang bei

I accelerate to escape the lingering sadness...



細數慚愧 我傷你幾回

xi shu can kui wo shang ni ji hui

Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many times...



停止狼狽 就讓錯純粹

ting zhi lang bei jiu rang cuo chun cui

Stop the anguish by letting my wrongdoings go...


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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Somewhere out There
DATE: 10/12/2005 18:22:53
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Somewhere Out There

Our Lady Peace

Gravity LP


Last time I talked to you

You were lonely and out of place

You were looking down on me

Lost out in space

We laid underneath the stars

Strung out and feeling brave

I watched the red orange glow

I watched you float away

Down here in the atmosphere

Garbage and city lights

You've gone to save your tired soul

You've gone to save our lives

I turned on the radio

To find you on satellite

I’m waiting for this sky to fall

I’m waiting for a sign

All we are

Is all so far



You're falling back to me

You're a star that I can see

I know you're out there

Somewhere out there

You're falling out of reach

Defying gravity

I know you're out there

Somewhere out there

Hope you remember me

When you're home sick

and need a change

I miss your purple hair

I miss the way you taste

I know you'll come back someday

On a bed of nails I’ll wait

I’m praying that you don’t burn out

Or fade away

All we are

Is all so far



You're falling back to me

You're a star that I can see

I know you're out there

Somewhere out there

You're falling out of reach

Defying gravity

I know you're out there

Somewhere out there

You're falling back to me

You're a star that I can see

I know you're out there

You're falling out of reach

Defying gravity

I know you're out there

Somewhere out there

You're falling back to me

You're a star that I can see

I know you're out there

Somewhere out there

You're falling out of reach

Defying gravity

I know you're out there

Somewhere out there

You're falling back to me

I know

I know

You're falling out of reach

I know

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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Gotta Stay High
DATE: 09/28/2005 05:34:12
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Gotta Stay High

New Radicals

Maybe You've Been Brainwashed Too



I saw your eyes

I had to run away

I fell too deep in love

There were no words to say

I just had to get high

One look inside

And I knew right away

I felt too much

I did not have the strength

I just ran to get high

But lover there’s something about you pushing me

Pulling me I saw your eyes

Fell into yesterday

An only child

Untill you let me stay

I had no one on my side

Too weak to stand

Too scared to love again

The damn has broke

My soul is spilling all over your hands

Take a look in my eyes

Lover

There’s something about your pushing me

Pulling me

That’s saying don’t go away

Ain’t never gonna be another

I see your eyes

I’ll never run away

I fell too deep in love

Only five words to say


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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Over Her
DATE: 09/25/2005 12:42:14
STATUS: publish
BODY:
"Over Her"



You know I been trying to figure out

Just what's going on

Am I over her?

I been doing a lot of thinking lately

Am I over her?

And I'm really missing you



It's been 3 months, 3 hours, 3 days

Since the last time I seen your pretty face

My decision to bring this to an end

And I'm caught up in reminscing

Having faithful visions of long walks, long talks

Play fights, late nights

It's been on my mind since Valentine's

Cause I had your heart and I let it slide



I ask myself time and time again (again I'm trying to comprehend that)

Unanswered questions still (things to be are meant to end)



Am I over her? (am I over her?)

Am I over us?

Am I over her?

Tell me am I really over my my love (am I over her?)

I can't think straight

Cause I'm too busy thinking of her

Am I really over my love?



I was going through some things that I couldn't explain

Now my situation's taking a big change

They say the grass is greener on the other side of town

Now I'm kinda wishing you would come back around

Is she sad or is she mad?

Does she have a new man, does she have it like that?

It's been so long, thought I would've moved on

Could've been strong and picked up the telephone



I ask myself time and time again (again I'm trying to comprehend that)

Unanswered questions still (things to be are meant to end)



Am I over her? (am I over her?)

Am I over us?

Am I over her?

Tell me am I really over my my love (am I over her?)

I can't think straight

Cause I'm too busy thinking of her

Am I really over my love?



It's water under the bridge

But I can't seem to forget

All the plans we made, all the time we spent

Makes me reminisce

I still see your face

All this love I can't replace

Am I over (am I over)

Am I over her? (her now)



Am I over her?

Am I over us? (am I)

Am I over her? (am I over)

Tell me am I really over my my love (my love my love)

I can't think straight (my love)

Cause I'm too busy thinking of her (never gonna be over her)

Am I really over my love? (never gonna be)



No

Am I over her?

No not over her no

Ohhhhhh

Am I over her?



Am I over her? (over her)

Am I over us?

Am I over her?

Tell me am I really over my my love (am I over her, am I over her?)

I can't think straight (I'm not over her)

Cause I'm too busy thinking of her

Am I really over my love? (ahh oooh)



I'm not over my my my love

I'm not over my my my love

I'm not over my my my love (oh no no)

I'm not over my my my love



Am I over her? (I'm not over my my my love)

Am I over us? (I'm not over my my my love)

Am I over her? (I'm not over my love my love, she's my love, she's my)

Tell me am I really over my my love (she's my everything)

I can't think straight (she's my everything, my everything)

Cause I'm too busy thinking of her

Am I really over my love?



Not over not over my love

Not over not over my love

I'm not over not over my love

Am I over her?

Not over not over my love..




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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Everybody's Changing
DATE: 09/25/2005 11:36:15
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Everybody's Changing

Keane - Hopes and Fears



You say you wander your own land

But when I think about it I don't see how you can

You're aching, you're breaking

And I can see the pain in your eyes

Says everybody's changing

And I don't know why



So little time

Try to understand that I'm

Trying to make a move just to stay in the game

I try to stay awake and remember my name

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same



Youre gone from here

Soon you will disappear

Fading into beautiful light

Because everybody's changing

And I don't feel right


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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Marian V
DATE: 10/18/2005 16:06:56
that's a nice song. :)
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: It's Been A While
DATE: 09/25/2005 08:22:05
STATUS: publish
BODY:
"It's Been A While"

Staind - Break the Cycle



And it's been awhile

Since I could hold my head up high

And it's been awhile

Since I first saw you

And it's been awhile

Since I could stand on my own two feet again

And it's been awhile

Since I could call you



And everything I can't remember

As fucked up as it all may seem

The consequences that I've rendered

I've stretched myself beyond my means



And it's been awhile

Since I can say that I wasn't addicted

And it's been awhile

Since I can say I love myself as well

And it's been awhile

Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do

And it's been awhile

But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you



And everything I can't remember

As fucked up as it all may seem

The consequences that I've rendered

I've gone and fucked things up again



Why must I feel this way?

Just make this go away

Just one more peaceful day!



And it's been awhile

Since I could look at myself straight

And it's been awhile

Since I said I'm sorry

And it's been awhile

Since I've seen the way the candles light your face

And it's been awhile

But I can still remember just the way you taste



And everything I can't remember

As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me

I cannot blame this on my father

He did the best he could for me



And it's been awhile

Since I could hold my head up high

And it's been awhile

Since I said I'm sorry


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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Never Gone
DATE: 09/21/2005 19:32:07
STATUS: publish
BODY:
The things we did, the things we said

Keep comin' back to me and make me smile again

You showed me how to face the truth

Everything that's good in me I owe to you



Though the distance that's between us

Now may seem to be too far

It will never separate us

Deep inside, I know you are



Never gone, never far

In my heart is where you are

Always close, everyday

Every step along the way

Even though for now we've got to say goodbye

I know you will be forever in my life (yeah)

Never gone



No, no, no, no



I walk along these empty streets

There is not a second you're not here with me

The love you gave, the grace you've shown

Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone



(Somehow) somehow you found a way

To see the best I have in me

As long as time goes on

I swear to you that you will be



Never gone, never far

In my heart is where you are

Always close (always close), everyday (everyday)

Every step along the way

Even though for now we've got to say goodbye

I know you will be forever in my life (in my life, yeah)



Never gone (gone from me)

If there's one thing I believe (I believe)

I will see you somewhere down the road again

(I will see you somewhere, somewhere, somewhere, somewhere)



(Never gone) Never gone, never far

In my heart is where you are

Always close (always close, always close), everyday (everyday, everyday)

Every step along the way

Even though for now we've got to say goodbye (yeah, yeah)

I know you will be forever in my life



Never gone, never far

In my heart is where you are (in my heart is where you are)

Always close (always close), everyday (everyday)

Every step along the way



Never gone, never far

In my heart is where you are


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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: New American Classic
DATE: 09/08/2005 07:23:47
STATUS: publish
BODY:
New American Classic ~What y'all think of this song? Pucha!!! Ang ganda!!!!!!~

Taking back Sunday


"We've got to get better",

I said, "it's all in your head"

We could live through these letters

or forget it all together

See the months they don't matter,

it's the days I can't take

when the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away



Just ask the question,

come untie the knot

Say you won't care,

Say you won't care

Retrace the steps

as if we forgot

Say you won't care,

Say you won't care

You try to avoid it,

but there's not a doubt

and there's one thing I can do nothing about



Well all that we need

is just a reaction

It's too much to ask for

when there's no attraction anymore

If chasing our dreams is just a distraction

I want to remember that

I know I can't go back



Just ask the question,

come untie the knot

Say you won't care,

Say you won't care

Retrace the steps

as if we forgot

Say you won't care,

Say you won't care

You try to avoid it (you try to avoid it),

but there's not a doubt

and there's one thing I can do nothing,

there's one thing I can do nothing,

there's one thing I can do nothing about



Just ask the question (just ask the question)

come untie the knot

Say you won't care (care),

Say you won't care (care)

Retrace the steps (retrace the steps)

as if we forgot

Say you won't care (care),

Say you won't care (care)

You try to avoid it (try to avoid it),

but there's not a doubt

and there's one thing I can do nothing,

there's one thing I can do nothing,

there's one thing I can do nothing about
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Hypnotic!!!
DATE: 09/04/2005 13:36:08
STATUS: publish
BODY:
The Second song i found to be quite nice to be listening to to either just chill o bump and grind to in Craig David's third album, The Story Goes...



"Hypnotic"



Hmmm n no no no hey yeah no oh hey no no yeah girl



I stepped into the club

Clocked this fly girl shakin her stuff now

Lookin' so hot I could help but say yeah

Moves to make a bother wanna go there

I'm talking unbelievable

Never seen a girl quite like this before now

Trying to figure out what I gotta do

To get the chance to spend a moment with you



Cos girl you're looking so damn fly tonight

And I know I'd like to take it there alright

What you've gots breaking all of the rules

So keep doing what you're doing ooh baby



She's so hypnotic, the way she moves on the floor she's got it

The way she making me feel I shouldn't want it but his girl she's so sexy

So hypnotic got every girl up in this club trying to top it

But that don't mean that this girl is gon stop it

Oh no she's so sexy



No time for drinks at the bar even though she's got me so hot at the risk of

Losing it all, I

Don't want to be the one the fool to let her go

Think it's about time that I dropped my my cool and let her know that

She's sensational got me watchin every move and got me begging for more well

Holding back it nearly drove me crazy that's when I slid up and said girl excuse me



Mmm you're looking so damn fly tonight

Your body gives me butterflies inside

I'd really like to talk to you

So keep doin what you're doing

Ooh baby



She's so hypnotic, the way she moves on the floor she's got it

The way she making me feel I shouldn't want it but his girl she's so sexy

So hypnotic got every girl up in this club trying to top it

But that don't mean that this girl is gon stop it

Oh no she's so sexy



Thought I'd seen everything in the world

But that all changed for me tonight

From the moment I looked in your eyes girl (ooh you blew my mind)

I know it's crazy but don't get me wrong

I just gotta have you in my life girl

Your vibe's just so hypnotic?



Oh baby woo woo woo woo oh yeah

So hypnotic, the way she moves on the floor she's got it

The way she making me feel I shouldn't want it but his girl she's so sexy

So hypnotic got every girl up in this club trying to top it

But that don't mean that this girl is gon stop it

Oh no she's so sexy [repeat]
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Fields of Hope
DATE: 08/31/2005 05:06:57
STATUS: publish
BODY:
In the cold depths behind the curtain,

You sleep alone.

The melodious voices of prayer,

Shines a tiny light onto the lonely fields.



I had a dream of you,

You were laughing like a child.

Familiar yet distant,

That is the future's promise.



Someday on a green morning,

Someday I will get there,

Because I believe in this desolate winter sky.

Fields of hope



I'm searching for those gentle hands,

That embraced me the day I was born.

A single voice of prayer disappears,

And I start again, continuing tryingly by myself.



Someday moving towards a green morning,

I will overcome the nights,

Because that is a place that I have to find alone.



For now, I just want to warm you with my chest.

Familiar yet distant,

The tranquility we strive for.

Fields of hope



Familiar yet distant,

The promised fields.

Fields of hope

Fields of hope
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Never should have walked away - hehe
DATE: 08/31/2005 05:02:45
STATUS: publish
BODY:
I just bought Craig David's new album. And this song totally rocks!!!

Never Should Have Walked Away

Craig David - The Story Goes...

"Never Should Have Walked Away"


I'd been sitting trying to figure out the reasons why

You were always goin out alone

I thought that you were meeting with some other guy

All those times you weren't at home

I was wrong but then i didn't understand

What you were tryna say to me

I thought that you were busy making other plans

And none of those included me

But then i always had to many insecurities

Why didn't i just decide to let it be?



[Chorus]

I never should've walked away

I should've been there for you babe

I know i've handled this all wrong

I swear, i didn't know

Things ain't never gonna be the same

And i know i'm the one to blame

I've gone and left you torn, baby

But i didn't know



I remember it so clear when i got the call

It was the hospital on the phone

They told me how you slipped and had a nasty fall

And would i come and take you home

Now that was bad enough but they had more to say

Felt like the words came out so slow

"I'm afraid she lost the baby but she'll be ok"

And i didn't even know

But now i see i should've been there from the start

Instead of letting it all fall apart



[Chorus]



I didn't know what was wrong

Girl i didn't know, no

I hope you know i never meant to hurt you girl

But i was way too blind to see

That you were only tryin to protect me girl

I wish you'd had more faith in me

Now i realise that i've let you down

And you had reasons to act that way

I thought that you were cheatin when you weren't around

That's why i had to walk away

But girl looking back

Inspite of all that you've been through

I'm asking is there still a chance for me and you



[Chorus (repeat)]


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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: The Garden of Everything - Great Song!!
DATE: 08/31/2005 04:56:06
STATUS: publish
BODY:
The Garden of Everything - Great Song!!



The Garden of Everything

Steve Conte and Maaya Sakomoto

Rahxephon OST



Here you are

Daylight's star

Made out of miracles



Perfection

Of your own

You Alone

O so incredible



Each atom

Sing to me

"Set me free

From chains of the physical"



O free me, O free me



The mirror melts

I'm somewhere else

Inside eternity



Where you on

Outstretched wings

Sing within

The Garden of Everything



Where memories

Call to me

Backward dreams?

Or phantom reality?



Call to me, they call to me



And so here we are

Lovers of Lost Dimensions

Burning supernovas of all sound and sight

Every touch, a temptation

And for every sense, a sensation



Eyes of pure

Deep azure

Quite unbelievable



The sun's daughter

You've been made

Not to fade

Quite inconceivable



Each atom sings to me

"Set me free

From chains of the physical"



O free me O free me



A love like ours

A starry flower

Through seasons and centuries



As rivers reach the sea

You'll reach me

With songs of your symmetry



A small boat

There will float

To far off coasts

The Isle of Infinity



Come with me. O come with me



Here we'll see

Love's lost tree

Made out of miracles



Emotions, crystal leaves

To cover me

And you in eternity



Each atom sing to us

Through the blood

"Love is a miracle"



Sings softly, it sing softly



And so here we are

Lovers of Lost Dimensions

Burning supernovas of all sound and sight

Every touch, a temptation

And for every sense, a sensation



And so here we are

Twin stars of brilliant brightness

Lanterns lit by life for all the depths of night

And every day will return us

To arms of the ever eternal



And so here we are

So far from earthly orbits

Burning supernovas of all sound and sight

Where every day will return us

To arms of the ever eternal
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: It is A Called Tagalog Words!!!! Bagong meaning daw. =P
DATE: 08/29/2005 18:21:12
STATUS: publish
BODY:
TAGALOG WORDS

For the enrichment of your vocabulary..........

1. BAKTOL --- ang ikatlong lebel ng mabahong amoy

sa kili-kili. ang

baktol ay kapareho ng amoy ng nabubulok na

bayabas. ito'y dumidikit sa

damit, at humahalo sa pawis. madalas na naaamoy

tuwing registration, sa

elevator o FX.

"Put@#$%, sinong nangangamoy BAKTOL sa

inyo?!!!

2. KUKURIKAPU --- libag sa ilalim ng boobs.

madalas na namumuo dahil sa

labis na baby powder na inilalagay sa katawan.

Maaari ding mamuo kung

hindi talaga naliligo o naghihilod ang isang

babae. ang KUKURIKAPU ay

mas madalas mamuo sa mga babaeng malalaki ang

joga. May subfolder din ang term na ito, Achukachi libag sa ilalim ng kaliwang boob at Achikachu naman libag sa ilalin ng kanang boob.

"Honey, maligo ka na para maalis yang KUKURIKAPU

mo

3. MULMUL --- buhok sa gitna ng isang nunal.

mahirap ipaliwanag kung

bakit nagkakaroon ng MULMUL ang isang

nunal. subalit hindi talaga ito naaalis, kahit na

bunutin pa ito, maliban na lamang kung ipapa-

laser

ito.

"How nice naman your MULMUL! Nakakakiliti!

4. BURNIK --- taeng sumabit sa buhok sa pwet.

madalas nararanasan ng mga

taong nagti-tissue lamang pagkatapos tumae. ang

BURNIK ay mahirap

alisin, lalo na kapag natuyo na ito. ipinapayo sa

mga may BURNIK na

maligo na lamang upang ito'y maalis.

"Labs, alam ko kung anong kinain mo kanina!!!

5. ALPOMBRA --- kasuotan sa paa na kadalasang

makikitang suot ng mga tindero ng yosi sa quiapo.

ito'y may makipot na suotan ng paa, at manipis na

swelas. mistulang sandalyas ito ng babae pero

kadalasang suot ng mga lalaki. available in blue,

red, green, etc.

6. BAKOKANG --- higanteng peklat. ito'y madalas

na dulot ng mga sugat na

malaki na hindi ginamitan ng sebo de macho habang

natutuyo. imbes na

normal na balat ang nakatakip sa bakokang, ito'y

mayroong makintab na

takip.

7. AGIHAP --- libag na dumikit sa panty o brief.

nabubuo ang AGIHAP kung ang panty o brief ay

suotsuot na nang hindi

bumababa sa tatlong araw.

8. DUKIT --- ito ang amoy na nakukuha kung

isinabit mo ang daliri mo sa

iyong puwit o sa puwit ng iba....try it to prove

it thats DUKIT.

9. SPONGKLONG --- ito'y isang bagong wika an

nangangahulugan sa isang estupidong tao.

"Buti naman at bumaba na sa puwesto ang

spongklong nating Presidente."

10. LAPONGGA --- ito'y kahintulad sa laplapan o

kaya sa lamasan.

"Hoy Utoy, bakit ba ang hilig mo sa mga sineng

puro

lapongga lang ang palabas?"

11. WENEKLEK --- ito ang buhok sa utong na

kadalasang nakikita sa mga

tambay sa kanto na laging nakahubad. Meron din

ang babae nito.

"Inay! Si Itay, sinaksak yung kapitbahay natin

kasi

hinila yung weneklek niya!"

12. BAKTUNG --- pinaikling salita ng BAKAT-UTONG.�

"Uy Jefferson, tingnan mo si Ma'am, baktung na

naman!"

13. BAKTI --- bakat panty.�

14. ASOGUE --- buhok sa kilikili.

15. BARNAKOL --- maitim na libag sa batok na

naipon sa matagal na

panahon.

16. BULTOKACHI --- tubig na tumatalsik sa pwet

kapag nalalaglag ang

isang malaking ebak.

17. BUTUYTUY --- etits ng bata

18. JABARR --- pawis ng katawan na bakat sa damit mong suot

19. KELOY (keloid in English)--- peklat na na emboss pagkatapos ng isang operasyon sa katawan o tahi

20. McARTHUR --- taeng bumabalik after mong i-

flush. "I shall return!"�

John Ferdinand T. Buen

Technical Customer Care Representative

SBC Communications Corp.

San Antonio, Texas

USA

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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Marian V
DATE: 10/18/2005 16:10:03
kilala mo b yang c John Ferdinand T. Buen? sbc pa rin b sya? classmate kc nmin sya nung college but i haven't seen him for a while..
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Don't Talk - Jon B.
DATE: 08/26/2005 07:40:38
STATUS: publish
BODY:
"Don't Talk"



Excuse me love

Can I come dance with you?

Uh, yeah

(Hmm, yeah)

2000, Jon B ish uh yeah

All you people in the club feelin' it

Uh yeah, come on baby now



Baby I had to stop for a second on the balcony

Scopin' you down, you're lookin' fly to me

All dressed up, and buying your own drinks

And that ain't right

Not that you can't handle it on your own

But your too damn fly to drink all alone

Can I come bubble with you?

To you - I'mma make a toast, come on



Don't talk

Baby just move with me

Take a sip

Kind of got you feelin' fizzy

It's alright, so rock with me

If it's alright with you, oh baby



Don't talk

Baby just move with me

Take a sip

Kind of got you feelin' fizzy

It's alright, so rock with me

If it's alright with you, oh baby



Baby, you got me high dancin' close with the Kana perfume

Smellin' all good

It's gettin' hot in the room

All pressed on you

And I know you feel it to

And that's alright

Pardon me, I'mma back up and be a gentleman

And if it's really real then you can tell me when

And that's when she pulled me close and said "Do it again", come on



Don't talk

Baby just move with me

Take a sip

Kind of got you feelin' fizzy

It's alright, so rock with me

If it's alright with you, oh baby



Don't talk

Baby just move with me

Take a sip

Kind of got you feelin' fizzy

It's alright, so rock with me

If it's alright with you, oh baby



Uh, come on baby now, uh

Uh, come on baby now, uh

Uh, come on baby now...



Girl it's alright to relax your mind

Cause you came out to enjoy yourself

It's on you and nobody else

Come on and bubble with me



Don't talk

Baby just move with me

Take a sip

Kind of got you feelin' fizzy

It's alright, so rock with me

If it's alright with you, oh baby
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: The Meantime Girl Revisited
DATE: 08/25/2005 01:50:09
STATUS: publish
BODY:
The Meantime Girl

She's the one you call when you're bored because she makes you laugh.



She's the one you talk to when you're feeling down because she's willing to lend an ear and be a friend.



She's not the one you call when you need a date to your company's Christmas party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night.



She's the one you spend time with between girlfriends, before you find "The One". You know, the one who you keep around in

the meantime.



She's not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don't look at her as a "real" woman, either. She's not bitchy enough, moody enough, or sexy enough to be seen in that light.



She's too laid-back, too easily amused by the same things your male buddies are amused by. She's too understanding, too comfortable; she doesn't make you feel nervous or excited the way a "real" woman does. But she's cool, and nice, and

funny, and attractive enough that when you're lonely or sexually excited and need intimate female companionship, she'll do just fine.



You don't have to wine and dine her because she knows the real you already, and you don't have any facades to keep up,

no pretenses to preserve. You're not trying to get anything of substance out of her.



She's not easy, but you know that she cares about you and is attracted to you, and that she'll give you the intimacy you need. And you know you don't have to explain yourself or the situation, that she'll be able to cope with the fact that this

isn't the beginning of a relationship or that there's any possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for her.



It won't bother her that you'll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye, and go on a date with the woman you've been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. She'll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her

and tell her how the date went. She's just so cool . . . why can't all women be like that?!



But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don't because to you, the situation between the two of you isn't important enough to merit any real thought), you know that it's really not fair. You know that although she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points and all the fun you two have, you don't think she's good enough

to spend any real time with.



Sure, it's mostly her fault, because she doesn't have to give in to your needs; she could play the hard-to-get biatch like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to.



But you and she both know that she probably couldn't pull it off. Maybe she's too short, or a little overweight, or has a big birthmark on her forehead, or works at Taco Bell. Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman.



So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover, and you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a woman.



You'll joke to her that she should be the best man at your wedding, and she'll laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux. She doesn't captivate you with her beauty, or open doors with her smile. Mainly she blends in with the crowd.

She's safe. She doesn't want to be the center of attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room. But she wants to turn someone's head. She wants to be special to someone, too.



We all do.



She has feelings. She has a heart. In fact, she probably has a bigger and better heart than any woman you've ever known because she's had a front-row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes you anyway.



She obviously something worthwhile and redeeming you because although you've given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is.



Your meantime girl.� Treat her right because she's probably the only one who would know you well enough to care.� And they don't stay around for very long because they too would realize the errors of being treated as such.� Maybe the guy would realize how important she is later on and find out that it is already too late...
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: anaya
DATE: 08/26/2005 01:52:03
can't help but comment on your blog.. i just hope "other" guys would be able to read this... =)
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Paulie
DATE: 08/26/2005 07:25:25
Yeah. I know. It's true naman diba? I just hope that some guys realize that they should treat women better. They shouldn't take them for granted and respect them. It's admirable for a girl to allow herself to be treated or given attention to for the meantime, but at what cost? Your love? Your affection? You would lose theit respect because you're not treating them any better than just a simple plaything that you play with and put aside when you get a better one. It's just not right.
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Thanks to Essie for the lyrics of this wonderfully crafted song!!!
DATE: 08/24/2005 19:40:07
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Hehehehe!!!! I love this song too. I downloaded it last week (nakss... illegal downloads ba?) and have been listening to it again and again. Ess, thanks for posting the lyrics to this great song!!!



Mr Brightside

the killers


I'm coming out of my cage

And I've been doing just fine

Gotta gotta be down

Because I want it all

It started out with a kiss

How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep

And she's calling a cab

While he's having a smoke

And she's taking a drag

Now they're going to bed

And my stomach is sick

And it's all in my head

But she's touching his-chest

Now, he takes off her dress

Now, letting me go



And I just can't look its killing me

And taking control

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea

Swimming through sick lullabies

Choking on your alibis

But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me

Open up my eager eyes

'Cause I'm Mr Brightside



I'm coming out of my cage

And I've been doing just fine

Gotta gotta be down

Because I want it all

It started out with a kiss

How did it end up like this

It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep

And she's calling a cab

While he's having a smoke

And she's taking a drag

Now they're going to bed

And my stomach is sick

And it's all in my head

But she's touching his-chest

Now, he takes off her dress

Now, letting me go



Cause I just can't look its killing me

And taking control

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea

Swimming through sick lullabies

Choking on your alibis

But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me

Open up my eager eyes

'Cause I'm Mr Brightside



I never...

I never...

I never...

I never...
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: My Own Lamentations...
DATE: 07/28/2005 21:20:57
STATUS: publish
BODY:
*Sigh....*



What can I say? I don't know.



Wala lang.




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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Wah!!!
DATE: 07/26/2005 18:39:32
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Wahh!!! Di ako nakapunta sa seminar ni John C. Maxwell!!!!!!! Sino ba kasi nag-imbento ng date?! Hehehe.


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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Heheh!!
DATE: 07/25/2005 20:47:11
STATUS: publish
BODY:


What kind of cookies do yah like, peeps?



Do you like Chips n' Delight?



Chips Ahoy?



Oreo's?





What kind do you like? My list here isn't necessarilly the one. Just tell me what y'all think of which one is better or not.








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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Anna
DATE: 08/22/2005 19:16:45
i love best is chips ahoy!!!!!! ahoy mate!!!
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: When you Love Someone...
DATE: 07/23/2005 14:10:17
STATUS: publish
BODY:
When you love someone, you try to keep that person. Do everything in your power to be able keep that person close to you. Fight for them. Fight for every last breath. The touch of her hair, the kiss of her lips, every single breath of her hair. Don't let go of this person. Cherish every moment. You don't know if it's going to last.



Well, that's what I think anyway.




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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: âßåM ċäŁßŏ
DATE: 07/23/2005 17:45:46
what's the use of fighting for your loved one if the one you love doesn't even give a damn about you..?
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Paulie
DATE: 07/24/2005 19:20:22
That's tough dude. But, then again, those kind of people can go to hell, really. :)
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: âßåM ċäŁßŏ
DATE: 07/26/2005 11:21:16
i wish that would happen... i really wish...
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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: Anna
DATE: 08/22/2005 19:21:08
thats wat i think too... i really wish i would have someone like that. i guess i'm just wishtful thinking...



@ abam as they say its better to have love than not at all... you are lucky you loved someone... you'll be the most happiest person in the world when the feeling was returned... but sadly as the qoute goes if you love her set her free.....



and when she came back she's yours to keep.... ;)
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: The Atmosphere here at Convergys isn't happy anymore. It's grim.
DATE: 07/05/2005 11:00:25
STATUS: publish
BODY:
It's disheartening here at the office. Looking at the normally packed 27th and 26th floors. It's not as full anymore and is sometimes almost empty. After the recent POSE fiasco, several of the agents have already left. Our Senior Operations Manager John Manzano, has resigned (I think), and there are some tl's who are leaving as well. There are some rumors going around which I won't discuss. Anyway, it's understandable that it is indeed some of the agents' fault for answering the POSE surveys through the AMT tool or through other means, but let's face it. The metrics here are hard enough already. The company isn't actually taking care of us anyway. Sure, we're payed higher than most call centers, but at what price? Our schedules change weekly. Take note, WEEKLY. We don't really have much by way of amenities either. As for what else is happening, they would impose a lot of unbelievably hard goals and standards (this is a call center, what choice do we have?), which are devised, and thought of by a "middleman" company, which, by the way, has their own call center, and imposes whatever standards of theirs for us to use. I find it pointless to have a middleman who has become a competitor, to stay on for whatever tools or training that they provide for us. Management and the higher ups say that our company is one of the best, but why do we have to rely on Accenture to create a lot of this crap for us? I mean, if our training program is supposed to be so good, why don't we come up with a program of our own. We'd be much better off, and from my point of view, I think Convergys will save more money, and at the same time appease it's workforce. If they just take care of their people as they say they would, then probably those that resigned wouldn't have left and everyone would be happier.



I just don't get it. I myself am having doubts with this company. I mean, I'm okay and all, but this is not amusing anymore. Half my wave is gone, and some of the people I'm really close to have left. Everyone is saying it's not happy here anymore. It ISN'T.




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COMMENT:
AUTHOR: h0t lesbian m0mma
DATE: 07/16/2005 20:33:06
you are oh-so-right man. i just resigned lastweek. d ko n kaya kagaguhan nilang lahat, starting from my so-called-team leader to accenture. they all suck. sayang lng tlga, laking sayang, maganda n nga lng sana cvg. and to add to that, d lng pala s sbc floor may kapangitang ngyyare, s hr din. ma frend from hr makati was terminated just like that. he said that the mngt reshuffled and those who are in a good position were reassigned and were given a lower pay then those who are just regular hr staff wer termed. sarap. what happened to cvg? it was like, all of a sudden, things went ugly. hmm..
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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Immense
DATE: 06/28/2005 12:30:38
STATUS: publish
BODY:
And so the story goes, forgettable faces, they come, they go. And the room is already dark. This is my sea, and I sing. I can feel the silence around me. As the music rises softly from the violins, then I see your face again. It's you, and I'm guessing where you are.



You, in this immense sea. A face I'll probably never see again, that goes, that fades away and plunges the theatre back into darkness.



Immense, in this vast sea. It's so immense, I feel it. I feel you're here, in the theatre, in the darkness. I can feel your prescence right next to me. I feel you're here, in the theatre, in the darkness. I can feel your prescence.



Yes, it's wiser not to think of you here. I'll pretend you're already far away. Then I'll sing and I'll sing. And I'll find you once again in this ocean. Once again, I'll feel the silence again around me. The music, an ocean of violins. And I'll sing and I'll sing.



I'll meet you again someday. I know I will. Immense. Immense is knowing you're beside me.




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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Babbo
DATE: 06/09/2005 09:20:36
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Caro Babbo,



Inutile discutere d'accordo non saremo mai.� Che cosa c'è di strano in cio trent'anni ci separano.� O forse c'e il timore in te di non trovare più la forza d'essere al mio fianco se gli ostacoli mi fermano.



Non preoccuparti, ascoltami.� Avrò problemi.� Affronto infami ma, niente� mi spaventerà, niente mi corromperà.� Niente al mondo mi farà scondare che posso vincere.� E vogliio farcela da me.� E voglio farcela da me.� So bene che per te è difficile giustificare questa smania di combattere osare l'impossibile...lo so.�



Ti sembrerà incredibile, ma più ci penso più m'accorgo che, assomiglio proprio a te.� E non sai come vorrei, che la forza ti abbandonasse mai per averti qui, e non arrendermi.� Mai



Ciao babbo, a presto.




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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: I learned a valuable lesson... And a Shout Out To some peeps! (Thank you!)
DATE: 06/06/2005 15:26:39
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Whew. I guess I just overreacted. It's not really something I would openly discuss. But I learned a valuable lesson today.



It's not about you being a good employee. It's not even about work.



I learned a valuable lesson on friendship. Anyway, it's regarding my previous blog. I won't bother to erase it because it is a testament to my thick headedness, or of my fear of losing a friend. Especially someone that I care and am concerned about.



I learned that even if your friend IS your ex, and you decide to become friends. It doesn't mean that it is the end of the friendship. It can be a start. A process of healing so to speak. You may have had history prior to your becoming friends now. It does not mean that you should sever all ties with this person. Sure, you broke up because of reasons like immaturity, cheating on one another, or whatever.



You learn from each other. Just like the way you learn from people everyday. You may see something bad, or good. But that's just the way it is. Who says you can't progress to a more meaningful and more profound relationship with your ex. I think I can. I don't know about the rest, but they are entitled to their own beliefs . I'm not going to expound on this one any further.



Being a friend means that you stand by that person no matter what. Even if they are wrong. You may not approve of their actions, but you still remind them of that. It's not really the issue for me, but it's one of those things that I've come to understand.



Respect them and hopefully, they'll respect you. You become friends with someone and your lives become intertwined. It doesn't matter if you've only been friends with them for a brief period of time. They become a part of you as, you, become a part of theirs.



Cheers to friendship. You never know how long or how brief (from one's own stanpoint of course! ) it will last.



And thanks to the people who gave me their input, their thoughts or sentiments. Merci.




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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Dream...
DATE: 06/02/2005 10:05:56
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Go then. I will wait for you. The flowers in the garden will mark your absence, and rejoice the day of your return. Of my love you are so sure. So sure that you can take it with you.

Cupped in the hands that you raise to your face, as you think of me. And if you need to, you can whow it to the world. A world that couldn't begin to understand what lives in an uncaring and absent heart. Tha couldn't begin to understand what a heart can truly feel.

This is where I will wait for you. Stealing imaginary kisses as time goes by. Time. Time cannot erase the memories and the desire that you cup in the hands that you raise to your face. As you still think of me.

Throughout your journey, it will lead you back to me. For I'll still be waiting here, dreaming. Dreaming of your unknown whereabouts. Picturing the scene you'll return to, and how you'll return, I dream.

This is where I will wait for you. Stealing imaginary kisses as time goes by. Dream. A noise. The wind awakens me. And you're already there...


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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Thoughts...
DATE: 05/22/2005 22:55:13
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Even the thought of your prescence brings solace to my tired self, brings cheer to this dreary place even in your absence.



Your thoughts amuse me. These small flashbacks of moments portrayed in words, in little mere words, simple enough to ease through this complex web of a mind.



In three letters, immortalized the one person to make me truly happy. In three letters : Y-O-U...



In three words, I love you. As simple as one-two-three, so that you can see , we can be like the sun chasing out the darkness.



It makes the world come alive. Our world.



Has the thought crossed, "Deny me this...," Deny me blissful thoughts kept in silence seep... To voids of understanding and forget...



Even the thought of your smile makes me lose myself in this vision...



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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Authentication?!
DATE: 05/19/2005 21:21:34
STATUS: publish
BODY:
What is wrong with these authentication issues? The member resets their password on the IVR and the broadband link goes orange?! What in Jesus' name is this. And then what? The outage is that they can't authenticate with their username and password. Oh well. I guess that's that. And our Tl said that we have 400 calls in waiting! What the F**K? What are we? Sales? Hayyy.. I have a headache. But i guess this is ok. You get to go improve or for some, destroy, one's stats. Good luck! Cheers!


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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Letting go of one's happiness...
DATE: 05/11/2005 18:15:08
STATUS: publish
BODY:
I don't know... It's difficult to let go of someone you cared so much

about. During that brief moment, believe it or not, I was happy. But

you came and turned the other way. It was as if I didn't exist... I

cared for you so much. Through the good times, and the lowest of

points of the relationship.



You seem to just notice the other people around you. I never asked to

care about you. I just did. You taught me compromise. It came to a

point that it was already unconditional for me. When I was initially

with you, I just wanted to cure you of your sadness. But as time

passed, I couldn't give you up. I had fallen in love with you.



But that wasn't meant to be. In spite of all that I tried to do, it

was never enough. You spent more time with your friends and what not,

while I was left all alone to fend for myself. Through all of the

frustration, the longing, the love, the happiness, I've decided to

let you go and turn away. It has to be the single most difficult

decision I've had to do. Work, it's nothing. My family troubles,

nothing. Losing you is more difficult. You probably won't even

bother to read this. It's okay.



I can learn to forgive you in time. But not for now. I just want to

be left alone. I want to learn to live again. To find my purpose.

Because you were everything to me. But now, I have no one. Nothing.



I'll find my happiness again. And maybe by that time, I'd have forgiven you...



~~~~Uyyyy fiction lang po ito ha.~~~~~


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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: A million things
DATE: 04/29/2005 22:20:30
STATUS: publish
BODY:
I could tell you a million things without any thought at all, not

meaning a word I say each and everytime I call.



I could do a hundred things, so calm, so indiscreet I end up being

someone else each and everytime we meet.



I mean to say a thousand things, but each one won't come out right.

I think of you throughout the daytime, til throughout the night.



I see what I love most in your eyes, too much it seems. I can no

longer hold it back. Hear the name my heart cries, and only you know

whom it is I lack to make my life truly complete.

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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Vision...
DATE: 04/27/2005 21:53:44
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Even the thought of your prescence brings solace to my tired self,

brings cheer to this dreary place even in your absence. Your

thoughts amuse me. These small flashbacks of moments portrayed in

words, in little mere words, simple enough to ease through this

complex web of a mind. In three letters, immortalized the one person

to make me truly happy. In three letters y-o-u... In three words I

love you, as simple as one-two-three, so you can see that we can be

as one like the sun chasing out the darkness. It makes the world

come alive..., our world..., has the thought crossed, "Deny me

this..." Deny me blissful thoughts kept in silence seep... to voids

of understanding and forget... Even the thought of your smile makes

me lose myself in this vision...

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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Fears
DATE: 04/20/2005 22:05:13
STATUS: publish
BODY:

Maybe it's just me. I show a different side each time to the world. They seem afraid. Well..., they seem to be afraid. But you? Ahhh..., what difference does it make? On whatever road I take, I seem to run into you. And wach time, I'm non-chalant. And I show you my despair. I show you all my hate and anger. Why aren't you afraid? Why aren't you afraid? Why aren't you afraid?

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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Wind
DATE: 04/16/2005 18:45:27
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Cultivate your hunger before you idealize

Motivate your anger to make them realize.

Climbing the mountain..., never coming down.

Break into the contents, never falling down



My knee is still shaking like when I was twelve.

Sneaking out the classroom by the backdoor.

A man railed at me twice but I didn't care.

Waiting is wasting for people like me.



Don't try to live so wise.

Don't cry 'cause you're so right.

Don't dry with fakes or fears.

'Coz you will hate yourself in the end.



You say dreams are dreams.

I ain't gonna play the fool anymore

You say, 'coz I still got my soul.



Take your time baby, your blood needs to slow.

"Breach your soul."

"Reach yourself before you gloom."

Reflections of fear makes shadows of nothing...

Shadows of nothing...



You're still blind if you can still see the winding road.

'Coz there is always a straight way to the point you see.



Wind by Akeboshi

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AUTHOR: stefanoleclercarislan
TITLE: Without you...
DATE: 04/15/2005 17:55:50
STATUS: publish
BODY:
Hmmm...


I hold you close to me, feel the breath of you, the wonder of you, and remember a time without you. But only as one would remember a bleak and distant nighmare. And you shudder against me in your sleep. Do you share the memory with me of dark times past? And you smile. Do you share the memory of times to come? The future holds much promise, and just as I cannot imagine a how I survived the past without you. I cannot imagine a future without you...










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